Story Behind the Song - When Grace Rains

For the longest time I wondered, “why do some people find and accept recovery, and some do not?” Unfortunately, too many, do not. I often asked myself why? One day I ask this question out loud after learning that someone “slipped”, someone I thought was going to “make it”– I felt sad.

A wise woman I’d long admired heard me and said, “Grace rains on all of us, some of us just can’t receive it.” Wow! I realized in that moment the truth of what she was saying.

 If I am busy bemoaning, complaining, and blaming, I won’t recognize the “gifts”. If I believe I am being punished because I am unworthy of love, compassion, and healing then I won’t accept the grace, the "gifts", the help, and I won’t be able to accept good things into my life.

From that day on I understood the importance of gratitude and self-compassion as well as compassion for others as a part of recovery. When we hold space for those struggling and we set the example of gratitude and self-worth we invite others to do the same.

Compassion, gratitude, and "meeting people where they are" provides an environment where Grace can be recognized and accepted.

It’s easy to find things to complain about, but that is not where Grace lives.

It takes soil, rain and fertilizer to make a garden grow, and growth is what I need to love my life.

Enjoy,

 

A special thank you to my producer Rick Barretta for his contributions to this song and for capturing the essence of this song in this recording. A special thank you to Derek Jones for his contributions to this song and to Rob Tracey for his amazing guitar work! For more about my music  Click Here

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Story Behind the Song - Clean

This was an unusual song for me. Not in the content, but in the process.

I write most of my songs in fits and starts over a period of weeks, sometimes months and occasionally years. I usually get a big chunk of the song in one burst of inspiration and then the crafting of the rest of the song is work. I just keep playing with it, trying different images and melodies and rhyme patterns until I get more of it.

I write primarily from the guitar working from chords, so I can easily move the melody around until I get it just right. I play with the key, the structure, the rhythm endlessly, but none of this was the case with Clean.

It was October 13, 2011. I know this because it was the day I was celebrating Twenty-Five years of continuous sobriety. I sat down at the piano and from simple chords the melody and lyric in it's entirety came through me in one piece, minus the six lines from the bridge. That came a few weeks later.

I love all of my songs, they are like children in that they come through me and then go on to have a life of their own in the world. This was an easy birth! I hope you find it meaningful.

Enjoy,

A special thank you to my producer Rick Barretta for capturing the essence of this song in this recording. A special thank you to Derek Jones for the beautiful guitar work! For more about this song and others  Click Here

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